#1 - Reiki by Accident
#2 - Tuning In
#3 - Reiki for Skeptics
#4 - Reiki for Migraine Relief
#5 - Peaceful Dying
#6 - Bereavement - healing the pain
#7 - How Reiki can help relieve the stress of modern living
#8 - Reiki for Past-Life Issues
#9 - Past lives can and do affect our current life
No. 1: Reiki by Accident - how a seeming crisis helped to set me free
by Sarah Hunt
Have you ever felt that the whole world is against you and that your life is running from one drama into another? That's exactly where I was just six years ago. Then a car accident causing physical injuries became my turning point.
Orthodox medicine helped to some extent, but I was told I would be left with constant pain and some degree of debilitation for the rest of my life. I couldn't accept this and felt there must be another way to give me a healthier lifestyle. I tried several different complimentary therapies before finding Reiki. I had a series of weekly Reiki treatments over a period of about three months and was surprised to find that a lot of emotional and psychological issues that I had buried, and didn't want to acknowledge because they were painful, seemed to be being released. I realised that whilst I had been thinking about my current issues at the time of the accident the problems that were surfacing were much deeper and related to my childhood. My childhood beliefs had formed a wall of protection and were helping to create the dramas in my life. Reiki enabled me to release those beliefs and my Reiki Practitioner helped me to understand how those beliefs had caused blockages in my energy system (chakras), and the end result was the car accident.
Reiki not only freed me of most of my physical pain but also helped me become a much calmer person. Things that would have wound me up previously seemed to just wash over me and I stopped running from one crisis to another.
The Universal Life force energy (Reiki) is channelled through the practitioner, and goes to wherever the blockages are, releasing them in the correct order to promote the body's natural ability to heal itself and bring a feeling of well-being and calm to the person. It's not a quick fix and needs a degree of commitment.
I now use Reiki to help prevent those negative blocks from building up, which has resulted in me leading a calmer, happier, more positive life.
Over the coming months, I will share with you why I started to teach Reiki, as well as specific case studies of including Reiki healing for children.
No. 2: 'Tuning In' to Reiki -
how 'attunements' fine-tune the Reiki healer
by Sarah Hunt
'Amazing!'
That is the only word I can find to describe each of the Reiki attunements I have had. An 'attunement' is the process in which the channel that the chakras run through is aligned to allow the Reiki energy to flow through. They are necessary for you to be able to channel Reiki. For me, each attunement, at each level, has been a completely unique experience, from seeing colours, to having a sense of peace and love surrounding me.
After an attunement, there is a twenty-one day healing period, which coincides with the length of time that Dr Usui, the founder of Reiki as we know it, spent on Mount Karuna when Reiki was sent to him. Each chakra needs three days to clear any blockages that are there. The first time I asked for the Reiki energy to channel through me, I could feel a tingling sensation in my hands. I found that as I started to use Reiki I became more sensitive to the Reiki energy that I was channeling, and also to the energy my body was emitting. I also became more sensitive to the energy emitted by the clients I was treating.
I found that my intuition started to develop and although I had been taught set hand positions, I intuitively knew where my hands needed to be placed during each treatment I performed. I also found that I knew where the energy blocks were and what the root cause of them was which enabled me to guide my client to the area of their life that they needed to look at changing.
Each progressive attunement allowed the Reiki to channel through me more strongly. The Reiki symbols that I was attuned to from Reiki 2 to Master Teacher level eventually allowed healing to take place on a much deeper level, in both my clients and myself.
Through this amazing process of attunement, I found that Reiki did really make a powerful difference both to my clients and to my own health and well-being. For this reason, I decided to teach this wonderful form of healing so that more and more people could help themselves and others to achieve a more peaceful, loving way of life.
Now I get to hear the people I teach tell me that 'attunements' are truly amazing!
No. 3: Reiki for Skeptics -
from stressed to chilled: a case study
by Sarah Hunt
Although I witness how Reiki brings positive results to people every day, I still find that many people are skeptical of the benefits of Reiki. One such person was a gentleman of about 50 (whom I shall call Charles) who was a friend of a friend. Charles had heard me talking about Reiki to my friend and was curious, but not convinced, that it could help.
Charles was going through a stressful period in his life and was finding it difficult to relax. I suggested he tried having a couple of treatments to see if it would help him to chill out a bit more. During his first treatment I was able to sense how stressed he was. I also noticed an energy change around his right knee and mentioned this to him. He was amazed that I had picked up the problem with his knee and told me that he had an old football injury.
That evening he sent me a text to tell me that he was very tired and was 'glowing'. I reassured him that the Reiki was working and that he must listen to his body and allow himself to rest and catch up on his sleep. The Reiki was kick-starting his body to heal itself by encouraging sleep. The next day Charles told me that he had experienced the best night's sleep he had had for some time. Since then Charles has come back for more treatments and is much more 'laid back' man.
As my experience with Reiki has grown I have found that it takes a minimum of six treatments for a real transformation to take place. Each treatment builds on the previous one, gently releasing negativity on all levels and bringing you to a sense of health and well-being. Restoring overall wellness enables you to understand yourself better so you can make the changes in your life that will make you feel more fulfilled as a person.
No. 4: Reiki for Migraine Relief -
how Reiki helped my son's dilemma
Migraines are a debilitating disease, which many people believe are food-related. My personal feeling is that it is the body's natural response to stress. Pregnancy, puberty and the lives we lead in these modern times all put stresses on our bodies, which may result in migraine.
From my own personal experience, my son started getting migraines at about the age of 12 just as he was entering puberty. A migraine would wipe him out completely for three days, and it would take another two days for him to recover.
I noticed that often his migraines were triggered by sleep deprivation, dehydration or environmental stresses, so I decided to see if he would allow me to use Reiki along with his prescribed medication to help relieve the migraine. I gave him his first two treatments when he was not in the middle of a migraine. The result was that he actually experienced a migraine afterwards, which initially put him off continuing with the treatment. His migraines however were what we in the Reiki world call a "healing crisis". This means that the Reiki treatment was going deep down to the root of the migraine, causing the negative energy to be released and bringing migraine to the surface. To understand this better, you might compare this to when we are going through some sort of emotional catharsis in life, and we can sometimes feel worse before we feel better.
Fortunately, after hearing this explanation, my son trusted me enough to try another treatment. After just two sessions of Reiki we noticed the frequency of the migraines had reduced, occurring now only once a month instead of fortnightly. Seeing this improvement, my son agreed to try Reiki yet again. This time there was no healing crisis and the space between the migraines became larger.
These days, my son's migraines are much rarer, and when he gets the warning signs that one is coming on, he immediately asks me to Reiki his head. As a result, the pain is relieved quickly and he fully recovers within 24 hours.
Today, my son openly states that Reiki is effective in helping him recover from migraines, and he is now much more open to asking for Reiki healing in general. Recently he got "studded" playing football and came home with a toe that was painful and nearly black in colour. He asked me to Reiki it. By the next morning, the toe was much better and only a small area near the nail was still black. I firmly believe that without Reiki he would have suffered for several days before healing started to happen.
I am happy to say that my son is a typical teenage boy who now realises that all "that healing stuff" I do actually works!
No. 5: Peaceful Dying -
using Reiki with the terminally ill
Reiki can be used in a myriad of circumstances to bring health and well-being to the client, but what about those who are terminally ill? Isn't it too late for them to have Reiki?
I had a discussion around this with my Reiki Master, and a friend who is also a Reiki Master. My friend was treating a client with cancer at the time, who had been told that her prognosis was poor. My friend told us how, through having Reiki, her client's quality of life was much improved during her last few months, and she was able to go on a trip that she thought she was going to have to cancel. Her passing a couple of months later was a peaceful event. This situation really made me think about someone I knew, whom I shall call Harry, whose health was deteriorating through heart disease. Things came to a crunch recently when Harry became unable to walk to the shop without getting severe chest pain and shortness of breath. Being so incapacitated had made Harry very frightened. It wasn't the thought of dying that caused the fear, but the process, so I decided to broach the idea of my giving him some Reiki. To my surprise Harry agreed (he had previously shown no real interest in alternative therapies, and seemed really skeptical), and so he allowed me to do his first treatment.
After the treatment, Harry was more relaxed than I had seen him for years. He described it as like having a warm blanket wrapped around him with the sun shining on him. We have continued the treatments and Harry is much less stressed and sleeping much more soundly.
I am under no illusion that Reiki is going to magically make Harry completely well again, but what I do know is that it will make his time left here more peaceful, and less fearful, so his quality of life will be much improved as he nears the end of his life on earth.
In my many years of nursing I often saw patients die in fear and pain, despite our best efforts. Now, by using Reiki as a means to facilitate the process of dying, I have found a way to bring peace to a life event, which is a natural progression of our journey.
No. 6: Bereavement - healing the pain
How Reiki can bring us to a place of love and acceptance
Bereavement is a painful experience whatever the circumstances. The feelings of anger, guilt, loss, pain and sadness can be overwhelming and have a really negative effect on our health and well-being. Whatever our beliefs about life after death we all go through the 'grieving process' until we come to acceptance of the situation. This may take a few weeks, months or even years. This is a normal process but need not be prolonged.
Reiki is a particularly useful form of treatment for someone who has been bereaved as it gently lifts out the negative emotions helping to heal the pain and bring a state of loving acceptance.
Mandy was in a dreadful state after the passing of her mother whom she was close to. She wasn't sleeping or eating properly, was really stressed, her emotions were all over the place and she had developed a sore throat. The first Reiki treatment had a huge impact on her, releasing a lot of the pent-up emotion and shifting an energy block in her throat. The sore throat went immediately.
Mandy had a series of 10 treatments over a 3-month period and during that time she gradually came to understand and lovingly accept the passing of her mum. The Reiki released her negative emotions enabling her to quickly resume a normal life.
I saw Mandy recently, just a year since her bereavement, and she looked radiant! Mandy told me that she firmly believes the Reiki helped her through this difficult period in her life and that her mum would be delighted that she had completed her degree!
Whilst the death of a loved one and the process of bereavement can knock us off balance in life, it's a perfectly natural part of the life cycle. It therefore makes sense to use our own natural abilities to nurture, support and heal ourselves in order to restore the balance to our energy and overall well-being. Reiki is one way of doing this, and I have seen its positive impact again and again. If you feel isolated and locked inside the emotional cycle of bereavement, why not consider Reiki as a gentle, loving solution to help you to move on to the next phase of living.
No. 7: Reiki for Health
how Reiki can help relieve the stress of modern living
It is so easy to get caught up in the stressful busy world we live in and as so many of us are now playing "catch up" after the holidays, it is all too easy to find ourselves running from one thing to the next in order to get everything done. I know that I have been guilty of this on many an occasion.
Just before the New Year, I had a dose of the flu which knocked me for six. It's very rare for me to take to my bed through ill health, but I was given no choice on this occasion. I used Reiki self treatments to help speed up the healing process and also asked a Reiki friend to do a healing on me too. With all the hectic weeks at work and in my own life before the holidays, I hadn't listened to my body which had been telling me to slow down a bit and re-evaluate what was important.
After the Reiki treatment my friend did, I was told that when she started she couldn't feel any energy in my system at all and that if I didn't slow down I would burn out very quickly!
This pulled me up short and made me re-evaluate what I was doing and where I was heading in my life and what was really important to me.
After much soul searching I have realised that I need to prioritise everything I want to do, which meant having to say "No" more often, so that I can focus on where I want to be and keep taking small steps towards that outcome. I also realised that I needed to use self treatments a lot more so that I was proactively promoting my health and well being and able to cope with everything going on. I had let my self treatments slip a bit because life had become so hectic that I hadn't made time for it. Until I got the flu, I hadn't realised the effect of not using Reiki had had on me.
I also realised that I need to use Reiki more to help me manifest what I really want, which is to be able to give up my job altogether and work with Reiki all the time. By taking responsibility for what happened to me and taking action to change it I knew I can heal the situations around me so that I can step into my ultimate goal whilst maintaining my health and well being.
And the great thing is - it worked! In January I have felt much more balanced and relaxed, and have been able to start making moves to leave my long-term employment and start my own Reiki practice full-time. Whilst this has been a difficult lesson to learn, the entire experience has given me even more determination to become a full time Reiki Master Teacher but without ever compromising my health and well being again.
I can't wait to see what happens in 2009.
No. 8: Reiki for Past-Life Issues
how fine tuning may make all the difference
There is only one Reiki energy but many different vibrations of it that may be used for different situations. Being attuned to other forms of Reiki is like fine tuning an engine, so that it will do exactly what is needed.
I have recently been attuned to Karuna Ki Reiki which focuses on compassion, helping us to develop unconditional love for ourselves and others and spread compassion throughout the universe. It is not a replacement for Usui Reiki, but an addition to it. What I have found with working with the energy so far is that it releases deep issues that are stuck within us and may even have been brought in from another life.
Karmic Reiki is another tool I am adding to my healing tool bag. This one particularly interests me as it helps release energetic objects brought through from previous lives. I recently experienced a Karmic Reiki treatment and to my amazement the Karmic Reiki Master found that I had shackles attached to my ankles. It is possible that I was a slave in a previous life or shackled up to prevent me from escaping. It certainly went some way towards explaining why I have been feeling so stuck recently.
She also found a bullet wound in my left thigh which she thought may have been from the Boer War as the bullet wound was round. Could I have been a soldier in this war, or just an innocent bystander? I am yet to find out through meditation.
The other thing that was discovered was the energy of a piece of metal that entered my head on the side and came out through the front. She felt that I may have fallen onto a piece of metal which had gone through my head at some point.
What really intrigues me though is why I have brought these energetic objects through from other lives. My Reiki Master was able to remove them from my energy system as they had served their purpose but what is it they were there to teach me, if anything?
Only through working with the energy will I be able to understand more fully why we bring things through from previous lives. I am a long-established Reiki Master Teacher, and I know how important it is to practise new skills. That is why I am offering a free session to the first 10 people who would like to explore Karuna and Karmic Reiki during the month of May. Just give me a call to set up your free session.
No. 9: Past lives can and do affect our current life
- a case history
As you may be aware I was recently attuned to Karmic Reiki. I haven't worked specifically with the energy but recently I have found that I have picked up past lives in my clients' auras whilst giving them Reiki and I feel that this attunement has enabled me to do this.
One client has had a profound experience from this and has agreed that I may share her experiences with you in order for you to see just how much we can be affected by past life experiences that we have brought through to this life. This case study also shows how much emotion we store inside ourselves, which, if allowed to build up may even manifest as a physical dis-ease. It also shows how Reiki lifts our emotions and limiting beliefs and thoughts to the surface so that we are able to release them. It isn't a quick fix but takes time and effort from the healee's point of view to heal the issues and the emotions.
When I first met Anna she told me that she was Reiki attuned but hadn't used it for some time. She then went on to give me an understanding of what had happened to her during the last eighteen months which had proved to have been a traumatic time in her life. There had been lots of issues around the house she had been living in and she had been forced to move. She also said that she had issues with her mother and with men. She explained that she is a single mother with twins aged seven and told me that she does gardening and dog walking whilst the twins are at school. At this time, her sleep pattern was poor, often waking twice a night and she felt completely exhausted. She was having vivid dreams and sometimes got insomnia. Anna said that she loved cooking but found herself comfort eating a lot of the time.
She had been given my business card by a friend who had picked it up and had intended to ring someone else for an appointment but rang my number inadvertently. She realised that the universe had wanted her to come to me. This was the start of an interesting journey with Reiki for both of us.
During her first healing I noticed that Anna's head was very busy and I felt that there were things she didn't want to hear or was afraid of hearing because she felt she couldn't live up to the expectations of others. There was a lot of anger attached to the past and fear around the future. Her throat chakra was quite closed and I felt that she wasn't able to express herself fully, but that it would come to a point where she could no longer hold back and then everything would come tumbling out all at once far more aggressively than she intended.
There was a lot of anger and pain in all her chakras and I felt that she was fighting to be herself but that she felt inadequate. There was a fear around her stability and she was frightened that she was not going to be able to hold everything together. She carried a huge weight on her shoulders and seemed to struggle with the weight she was carrying.
Anna was able to relate to everything I told her and we agreed that she would try keeping a dream diary, to see if this would help give her an understanding of what her dreams were trying to tell her.
The next time I saw Anna she told me that her sleep pattern was still poor, she had been passing urine more frequently, (which often happens post reiki as it helps to clear the toxins) her energy was low and she didn't have time for anybody and was being very selective over who she spent time with.
As is always the case with Reiki the next treatment was very different. I felt her head was flitting from one thing to another as if she was trying to make sense of things. As I moved to her heart chakra I felt a lot of pain and was then aware of her father. I saw him holding her hand and taking her to school. I described him to Anna and she confirmed that it was her father and that he had passed over some years ago. I told her that he wanted her to talk to him and that he was telling me that he was very proud of her and her children. I found myself being drawn to her shoulders and her father told me that he wanted to take some of the burdens away for her. He told me that Anna was to talk to the angels and give them her problems. They would then guide her to the answers.
There was a lot of anger in her energy system, some directed towards her father but a lot directed to herself and I told Anna she needed to stop beating herself up and look at the positive areas of her life and what she had achieved. I also picked up that she had been having stomach problems and lower back pain which she confirmed. The energy in her legs was like treacle. I needed to roll the energy to try and move it as it had become so stagnant. Anna took on board everything I had told her after the treatment and I left her to mull things over in her own mind, but knowing that if she wished to discuss anything she could call me before the next treatment.
At her third treatment Anna told me that she felt more confident and had been really pleased that her dad had come through. She said that her emotions were calmer, that she felt she had more clarity and although she was still dreaming, the dreams were not as erratic. She also told me that her stomach and back pains were settling. She was still less tolerant than normal and had noticed that she was pushing people away who caused a 'hurricane' around her.
During this treatment I felt that Anna had lots of creative ideas coming through that she was pushing away. I was told that she was starting to hear and listen to the signs she was being given. Her head was still a bit disordered but I could feel more order coming in bringing clarity with it. Once I was over Anna's shoulders I could feel tension within her whole body which I felt was coming from the burdens she was carrying. There was still some anger evident in her energy system and I felt that she was having a battle between her logical and intuitive sides. The energy in her legs was a bit better but felt as if she was 'stuck in the mud'
At Anna's feet I saw an ice queen with almost angelic wings and felt as if she was being deceived again and needed to look beneath the surface.
Anna could relate to everything I told her after this treatment and realised that she needed to allow her creative side to come through more in order to achieve more balance in her life.
The following week Anna told me that she was struggling with people and being more selective as to who she wanted in her life. She had felt very tired after the last treatment and had had a very poignant dream which we both felt was helping her to clear her emotions. Anna said that she was finding fault with everything, she felt that she was boring and had no value. She felt like a machine, was intolerant and still not sleeping very well. Her throat ached and she felt heavy in her back and chest.
In this treatment Anna's head was very busy as if she was shifting out all the rubbish. I felt that she needed to do more creative things and that she wasn't listening to the signs again. There was a lot of anger connected to the past that had surfaced again and when I was over her shoulders I felt that Anna sees intolerance as a burden. I felt that she needed to look at what people where reflecting back to her as they were parts of her that she needed to accept as part of her make up.
At Anna's throat chakra I felt that she wanted to be very critical, even damning of people, which was causing her to fight with her non-judgemental side. Over her heart chakra there was emptiness, sadness and loneliness which I felt all stemmed from the past. I felt she needed to look inside for the love that she craved. In her lower chakras she was beating herself up again and fighting with herself. The energy in her legs and feet was still quite stagnant.
We had a long conversation about the shadow self after this treatment and how sometimes people come into our lives to highlight that part of ourselves which we don't like and need to heal. Often when a trait is mirrored to us it is accentuated and our immediate reaction is to be irritated by it but that what we needed to do was look more deeply at ourselves and accept that it is a part of our make up that we can do something about. We are then in a position to show compassion and forgiveness not only to the person displaying those characteristics that we don't like but also to ourselves.
When I saw Anna the following week for her fifth treatment she had a sore/raspy throat. She said she had been investigating her shadow side, trying to understand what she didn't like about herself and how she could heal and change that. She had also been thinking about her relationship with her mother as she knew she had issues she needed to let go of.
Her sleep pattern was much better although she was having vivid dreams again which she felt were more like messages. Her energy was better when she had slept properly and she was taking each day as it came.
This treatment had a very profound effect on us both. Anna still had battles going on between her logical and creative sides. Her ears felt blocked but more so, on the right than the left and I felt it was connected to a man. Her throat was unbalanced with the right side taking more energy than the left and again I felt this was connected to a man and a past life.
When I was over Anna's shoulders the energy on the right side of them felt very stuck and heavy. I saw a female slave being beaten at a plantation. I felt the slave was Anna and the man whipping her was her mother in this life. Anna didn't deserve to be beaten and I felt that as the slave she held a lot of resentment towards the man who was giving her the beating.
There was sadness and loneliness still in the heart chakra and as I moved further along her energy system I felt there was a lot of anger directed towards several different people both male and female.
The information about the slave in the plantations intrigued us both and Anna told me that she had always had a hankering to visit New England. When I got home I googled plantations and found that there had been a lot in the New England area of America. I texted Anna to tell her and she told me that she had picked up a book that she had had for a while after I had left. The page she had opened the book at had had a picture of a plantation on it. We both felt that this information I had picked up was extremely significant to some of the issues going on in her present life.
This Reiki session in fact caused a powerful cleansing giving Anna a healing crisis. She had had an upset stomach for a few days and rang me to see what I thought and what she could do to settle her body down. I confirmed that she was probably having a healing crisis as there was a lot of "crap" for her to shift from that past life. I suggested that she put some clear quartz onto her abdomen to help with the healing and clearing.
When I saw her a few days later she said that her stomach had settled with the help of the clear quartz and that other people had commented on how much better she looked. She still felt quite angry but could feel her sense of humour coming back. She felt as if she had been living in a mist for a very long time that had now been lifted. She found herself being forthright in a subtle kind of way.
Anna told me that authoritarian figures had always made her feel uncomfortable and inferior but that she no longer felt like that. She was aware that a lot of men that were attracted to her were just looking for fun and she felt uncomfortable with this but she had noticed that her attitude towards men was changing. We decided to cut the ties between Anna and this past life to help her let go of the issues she had brought through. In any situation and whenever we form any kind of relationship with someone we put out Etheric ties and they are also sent to us from the situation or the other person. When a relationship ends these ties can be broken quite harshly and that is what causes us so much pain. The intention behind cutting the ties for Anna was to release all ties that no longer served her i.e. the negative thoughts, beliefs and emotions that were attached to the situation in the past life in the plantation as she was no longer experiencing this life. Only ties of love would be left. To do this I talked Anna through a meditation asking Archangel Michael to cut the ties, Archangel Raphael to cauterise them with unconditional love and healing and Saint Germaine of the violet flame to transmute all negativity into positive energy. As we did this I was aware of some very thick cords at the solar plexus, sacral and root chakras and also at the ankles that were being cut away.
I did a shortened Reiki treatment after we cut the ties and noticed that her head was a lot calmer than it had been during the previous treatments. There was still a lot of anger connected to the past and fear around the future and what her life purpose really was. I felt her ears had cleared as if she was ready and willing to hear so that she could heal. Her heart was still a bit closed off which felt connected to the past. At her shoulders I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off. There was a lot of anger in her solar plexus. Anna was angry with herself for allowing her self-esteem and self confidence to be battered and angry with others for doing this to her. There was anger in her sacral chakra connected to past relationships and the rest of her energy felt quite balanced.
After the treatment Anna said that she felt one tie being cauterised and it had made her jump. She had found that she was very aware of the high vibration energies that had come in to help with the cutting of the ties.
As you can see from these treatments I was given a lot of information to pass onto Anna to help her to understand why she behaved in the way she did towards men and her mother, over a series of six treatments. We both realised that the last two Reiki treatments had enabled her to release a lot of negative emotion, helping her to take a huge step forward in her current life. Anna has realised that even though she has had six treatments with me there is still a lot of healing to be done and has agreed to continue having treatments with me.
After the cutting the ties treatment, Anna and I spoke at length about the past life in the plantation as a slave. Here is what she had to say:
"I was once called a man hater by the man who was my match sexually, who then became the father of my very beautiful children. Thankfully I did not give him my heart and soul fully and am very grateful for that now as I know now that through the hands of fate, mother nature, the course of the universe, the hands of time whatever you want to call it, I had things to deal with from the past a long time ago.
From a very young age I was very aware of men, of their actions, looks, and subconscious thoughts. I never felt completely comfortable around them apart from my father of course. I reached puberty at the very young age of 9 years and proceeded to grow up very quickly. Unfortunately boys were not very kind in the process and I found I started to feel very conscious around the ones that had been my friends from a young age. I had a wonderful first love which was heartbreaking in the end. It's the stories in between and there on that I suppose you put down to experience.
I cannot quite pin point when I realised that the experiences I had had through my relationships did not add up to the reactions I had to men. Yes I had had controlling almost bullying relationships but my self-esteem was not great anyway. I love the idea of love. I am every princess, heroine and broken hearted lover in every movie or book I have seen so why do I end up with the rough diamonds of life (lessons maybe). Some people would say you put out what you draw back and others say I find those ones more exciting. The fact is I find funny men very good company, intelligent men daunting but wonderful, powerful men in suits such as directors, managers, and lawmen, distant and cold. The ones that have to prove themselves, assert their manhood, talk to you as though you are an object of sex or less intelligent, Lord of the manor and money orientated are the men I find intimidating and ignorant.
If I can explain that if you put me in a bar I will always end up talking and laughing with the guys. It's the same at any party or get together. I have always enjoyed men's company, but I have however been in the company of very arrogant, selfish, rude men and have continued to talk, thinking that I would be considered bad mannered for leaving. This is where its starts. I used to find it hard to back away, stand up for myself, say 'no' to invitations or drinks even a good night kiss, feeling that I was obligated to say yes. I would be persuaded to go for a drink or to the other extreme convinced to stay the night with them even if nothing sexual happened. I am not going to be precious about this and feminist these are my feelings and thoughts but I have given in to the 'what will they think of me' scenario a lot if I had said no. I used to be faced with the most bizarre situations and it was like somebody else was thinking for me and I could not find the reasons to say no or stand up for myself for fear of upsetting the other person. But on the other hand I was also very selfish because I have met several men all of whom the chemistry was very strong with, where, because of the naïve romantic notion that, if it is that strong you should follow you're heart, I have ended up being hurt and hurting other people. Again here I was acting from me with added personality. I have never quite understood what I wanted from a relationship and I always feel I have to give to receive. Since I have had one past life come through and I believe I have had many, it has all slotted into place- why I felt obligated, bullied, intimidated and in awe of very male men and at the same time why I like men to be men. I am able to be more assertive now and not have to explain myself, but just to say no. I still struggle with the oversensitive issue and feeling that I have to explain myself all the time. But I am trying to understand that too. Since having my ties cut to my past life other physical things have slotted into place I am a worker of the land I work very hard and consistently I struggle in any closed environment i.e. an office. I understand also why I do not like unnecessary pain or being pushed into something. I hate being ordered around and like to think for myself. I have hurricane lamps everywhere and candlelight. I do not like doors I cannot see around and have removed them from my house for a cosier open plan living. Curtains are my doorways. I have a longing to see New England and knew the words uncannily to Amazing Grace from a very young age!!!!!!!!!
As for the romantic stuff well I don't like dates I think they are a waste of time, I like to get to know people in normal surroundings. The point of a relationship to me is to spoil yourselves together whilst you are in it and I feel having shifted this past life tie might bring me closer to an intended. The men in question I find attractive are character wise like Doc Martin and Mr. Darcy- yeah I know moody, quiet, rude, arrogant but underneath all that a loving man and a gentle one.!!!!!!!!
It took having my children to make me realise that I had known on a subconscious level that I had a very controlling mother. I think to put it mildly I chose to ignore and accept it for a very long time. Her word was the law and I felt guilty when challenging it. To be brief I had a lovely childhood. All the things that should have been there were, except the truth between my parents. I now understand that I am a product as such, of my parent's secrets and what I know now fits the pieces of the puzzle together. There were affairs and secret drinking and protecting the children and trying to gain financial status. I believe as a very young child I picked up on atmospheric conditions and felt things I did not understand. They loved each other dearly and I don't know what went wrong but it has confused and altered my way of thinking about family life a lot.
If I was to explain now all of the moments that my mother has said and done things that have caused me pain we would still be here next week. I do not deny that I have probably said and done things to cause her pain as well. But I did have an unnecessary resentment toward her. My father died of liver failure and said some terrible things but I did not resent him, just a little angry maybe.
So with my mother I go round and round in circles, I have screamed at myself, fallen on the floor in a heap with frustration and exhaustion because she does not get it and I am not an all round east Londoner with FAMILY in the way that she was brought up. I have asked myself the continuous question as to why I resent her so. I know that with the law of the universe you cannot wholly blame your parents for your mistakes or blame another person for how you are but you cannot deny me that it does have an affect as I look at myself everyday with my children. So a big shock when my past life came about.
I had an experience recently with a man who actually was supposed to be a friend and he made me feel terrible, my mother three months later made me feel the same. I accept that she had her own bad things going on, but it was more the fact that she tried to baffle me with bullshit really. So since that past life tie has been cut I realise that maybe it's not my lessons to learn from her, but maybe her lessons to learn from me. When challenged by my mother, I sit back and think about it and then tell her what I want to do. I believe she wanted a lot more control over the children and as I am talking now I can feel a tightness because she does not have it and do you know what? I feel bad about that; which is crazy. I would not say everything is sorted, I don't think it ever will be but I am now in control".
Healing is a life long experience and Reiki is one way in which we can heal all the past pain and negative emotions and beliefs, not just from this life but from many previous lives as well. These treatments have had a profound effect on Anna, giving her an understanding of why she is the way she is. It has also shown me how wonderful using the Reiki energy is and how it can help to give clarity as well as release all the negative thoughts, beliefs and emotions that no longer serve us. Our view point changes on things because we have an understanding of what is causing the issues. We are then able to offer forgiveness to those involved in the pain as well as ourselves, thus giving us the opportunity to truly heal. When we are able to do this we react in different ways to situations as we no longer hold old thought patterns and behaviours and when we react in a more positive way our whole world changes for the better around us.
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